Here and the other place have been getting an extraordinary large number of hits compared to the past few months… in fact maybe even the last year.
I do not wish to be presumptuous as to why.. but IF it is a sign of needing some reassurances as to your worth and value from a stranger after all this year.. then I can only reiterate what I have been saying for these past 4 year or so..
I BELIEVE IN YOU JOEY!!
I have met people from all over he globe. Rich and Poor; Powerful and Powerless; Good and Bad; Men and women and across the spectrum of humanity. Physically beautiful and those who lack in that aesthetic characteristic. I have met talented people and people with god and bad intentions. Introverts and extroverts.
People do not seem to realize how much of themselves they shoe ion what they post and even in what they do not post . For example you have become politically neutral in your posts.. but you used to at least give an inkling of your moral and ethical fabric and even your outrage but when you launched the production side of your business you stepped back from that. Your neutrality gave you cover from those who would judge and as such might have even kept business from you. so it was a pragmatic conscious action.
Your expansion from on the floor to behind the scenes has been interesting. More responsibility in the new position . But that Sagittarius spirit seems to crave the adventure and need to fly and soar above to be that free spirit in your pursuits.. and then the need for financial security takes root and hold you to the ground. How difficult that must be for you. but at least you have the ability to have some creativity in a business you have familiarity with.
I know .. everyone thinks I am still that stalker or weirdo.. and that is fine as I don’t have to deal with them. At least you should know by now that I have no bad intentions.. not fantasy of whatever. I am simply a dad and businessman who has his share of issues and personal troubles just as everyone else does in this world. Especially family back home problems. which while I would love to share them with you.. well this is not a good forum to do so.
AS I said last week.. I never stopped believing in you.. or seeing you for something more than those peopled from all walks of life that I have encountered. Few people in this world have impressed me.. but you have always had that “Je ne sais quoi ” that set you apart. that special something something that is indescribable in mere words…. Your ability to engage people in and out of work, your artistic flair, your shoe fetish…lol… your introspective posts on life and the world around you that you so rarely make anymore.. but is still inside of you.
The hurt and pain that you suffered in relationships in various areas of life. you are not just an individual but a unique configuration of intricacies that have evolved into a special human being. Someone that I recognize as having an ability to do so much with your life as to affect a huge number of people in this world… IF you allow yourself to explore. So many great artists have been “Starving” artists on their way to greatness. .. you have that greatness inside of you.. I have seen it from afar.. I trust my instincts.. I BELIEVE in YOU.. even if you sometimes doubt yourself.. I believe in you Ms Joanna Marie… and I want to see you become great.. even if you never speak to me… I want you to reach your potential in life. because I am a selfish bastard who wants to be right… no .. not really… because I want a better world… and I want you to help make this world better for people like my autistic daughter. one that is more accepting and caring and helping.. and THAT dear Joey is a piece of you I have seen in the past when you posted freely about the world. I have been lucky indeed to have seen that before you hid it from the world.
When this one particular business FINALLY makes it.. my net worth will be considerably more than I can handle.. and way to much to leave to my family or any individual.. I have been identifying people to help in this world that I believe can make this world a better place.. you know 2 of them. I fully intend to do this sooner rather than later as I want to live a long time and see the fruits of my efforts. These people along with yourself will be given gifts that have 1 string attached… do for others ion the future and help them in some small way to achieve their dream and make this world a better place… and the best part of this “gift” is.. you and the others will never see me or have to deal with me in any way.. and THAT kiddo is how I will finally prove to you and them that I see your value on this world and want you all to be what you can be without having to join the army.
I currently still help some people now.. but not to the extent I want. one women I truly admire is from an african country I know well.. she has worked hard and is almost done her bachelors and has a desire to become a doctor and return to her country to work there. she is someone I wish you could med as she is very conservative and down to dearth and I accidentally made her cry the other day as she was getting ready to leave to go back to school. It was all over a card I wrote a note in telling her something similar to what I tell you.. that she has a great destiny and I want to see her fulfill it. she is the kind of woman every man would be proud to take home to meet his mother.. she is truly remarkable. and so are you Joey!
I had one “hero: in my life… and as I told you a long time ago I have had few true loves… and many responsibilities. I do NOT idolize people.. I in fact do not like many people as there are so many phonies in this world.. meaning not only intellectually dishonest but emotionally dishonest and morally and ethically bankrupt. I am gregarious .. but I love returning to my cave with my baby to take care of.
The difference between Morals and Ethics is easily summed up as “A Ethical man knows it is wrong to cheat on his wife.. whereas a moral man would not. ” We need more people with Morals… not in the old-fashioned morals but in right from wrong and good from bad and the dignity of the human spirit and the values of integrity.
I wish I could say you are a hero of mine.. or at least a valued friend.. but you are not and never will be.. but that does not mean that I cannot be interested in a good way in your success in life as you have those ethics and mortals… and the feistiness to tell people when they are wrong. and so I want in some small way to make sure you have that opportunity to do that.. so I can have someone give you 20 dollars to get started. well in a year or so .. probably much more.. but I am not near that time yet.. you will see my name in the news when that time comes.. as I said before I loved my anonymity and I have to give it up to do what I want to do… having a dream comes with a cost that is not in dollars but in compromises it takes to achieve that dream in my lifetime.. just please .. if you get this never say anything to anybody about where it came from nor acknowledge me… I want you to grow Jo.. that is all… but then again.. I may be wearing thigh high boots and a mini skirt on main street here at 3 am looking to make enough to pay my light bill.. or not..
Maybe it has not been you in these visits.. maybe it was a coincidence.. but if it wa you and you wanted to know if I still believed in you and thought you have exceptional value.. than by this post you should know I do… and if it was not you.. and you eventually see this.. the you will still know anyway.. and I just continue to look like some fool.. and that is OK as long as YOU know someone believes in you outside your fam.. unconditionally.
Be well kiddo.. no MEME’s tonight.. just my words for whatever they are worth.